Nkimadams Dreaming of a White Christmas

I took a great workshop in procrastination with a group of fellow students. It was interesting to see how we all have our own unique forms of procrastination. We all had different but clever tactics to make sure we either don’t get our work completed on time in an organised fashion and to the best of our ability.

Fear of Failure
Not being good enough
Not perfect enough
Fear of Success
The core of these issues, we were told by our calm, and compassionate analyst, stem from issues of self esteem.

Procrastination in my case comes from having too much work to do and not being able to focus in, chaos playing havoc. I think the route cause for me is a lack of balance and a capacity to focus.
When I focus in I realise it doesn’t take as much time to organise as I had feared, and a little of everything goes a long way.

Planning and visualising are also important to get things organised and relieve the internal chaos.

Nkimadams Dream of Sin

In my special project process, I’m really enjoying the organic nature, being able to be flexible, testing and trying things and getting realistic about what is actually possible (in order to meet an essay deadline).

I did not receive funding from the Arts Council, though they said I met all the criteria… so I guess I’m just an unknown, and may have asked for too much. Now I have to be twice as  resourceful, and pay attention to how I am spending my time more wisely. Procrastination just isn’t an option at this point.


NKimadams  Star of Bethlehem

I am drawn to this image as a symbol of my own procrastination, paralysed (this person is actually a dead soldier) I am unable to reach the potential star above. 


2 replies
  1. Stefania
    Stefania says:

    It is really interesting. My procrastination comes from a combination of the things you say. I want to be better, I am sure about the possibility to do better, but at the same time there are so many fields in which I want to do better than I start to jump to one from an other and then I stop and feel sensation of paralysis: everythings seems so big.
    A lot of “if”.
    Which are my real possibilities? what is real? what depend simply in trusting in myself? Or.. if am I trusting too much?

    Anyway I love your job and the job of Artolution, hope to reach something like this a day,

  2. Sharon Virtue
    Sharon Virtue says:

    Hi Stefania,
    guess why its taken me so long to reply!!! Procrastination is a state of mind really it’s partially psychological partly learned behaviours all of the above for me.
    I’m working on breaking things down to small manageable junks and do a tiny bit every day – even if its literally a tiny bit.
    Thanks for your compliments and you will definitely be doing this one day. Focus on the end goal of doing good for others. You’ll get there.

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